hey Guys!

HEy guys sorry for not being around that often. . I'll post on the weekend. I'm just trying to adjust to school here. .

Don't worry, take your time. It's always a strenuous but worthwhile experience this kind of adaptation.

you have all the time you could possibly need :3
can't wait to see you post again though

Well, since I don't know a specific place to ask this, here we go: Malkuthe, do you have a persona to represent you on the online world? I have the weird interest in drawing someone else's characters. Thoron has his constantly-changing-and-always-adapting persona, and I also have my own, so I was just curious ^_^

Well, I do, in a certain fashion. Although I don't really use him as an avatar. I use Malkuthe Highwind, past chieftain of the Highwind tribe to represent myself, mainly in my username. . If you want a refsheet go here:

http://goldendercon.deviantart.com/gallery/#/d2r7e11

I suspected about Malkuthe Highwind (the ceree), but I wasn't sure about his significance to you, or how accurately he represents yourself. Do you have more things in common? (Of course I'm asking about the prior Malkuthe, and not the Agador) Have you ever designed a character in deeper harmony with you?

Well, perhaps back then when I created Malkuthe, he constituted the side of me that was the unwilling leader. I was afraid of the dark, but not of small enclosed spaces. I enjoy solitude and I'm often aloof, like Malkuthe was. I haven't really created a character that represents me. I just have never thought of myself as a viable candidate for basing a character off of.

Well, you can think this in two different ways...
The first: common, what a low self-esteem. You say that like you're too uninteresting to be the base of a character, and I'm sure this is not true. You have a story, characteristics, tastes, desires, that is enough to make a character, and make it interact with a different world. The character doesn't need to be a hero or live in eternal epicness (Thoron, are you hearing that?), it must satisfy you, and be sincere. At least harmonic with you; if you create a super-soldier, your escaping the main subject.

The second: Hello! You ARE real. Just make you. Be honest! Don't mold your character the way you would like to be, physically or mentally, it must represent your whole self, and not only the good part. The things your persona will differ from you, are the ones limitated by the rules of our real world. About this, only your heart will opine.

And, of course, you have the option of not making a persona/avatar. This is just fair, if you are real enough to choose the virtual world to live part of your life. It's healthier, probably, exist just in reality. I just choose this because... I can't live in just one world. Any world ^_^ I can't fit in just one 'self'. So I create. Maybe this is not your case.

Haha. No, not at all. Self esteem is something required to be able to stand in front of a crowd and deliver a song, a speech or even a play. I do all those things.

No, I simply don't find myself inspiring enough to myself, if you get what I mean. I have yet to find a place for a character that represents myself in any of my works, and that's saying something. Although I might in the future. .

I agree, I feel the real world extremely lacking in respect to feelings of utter fulfillment. I can only hope to one day actually be able to enter the worlds of my creation. Although, as I have said, I have yet to find one in my work where I or any reflection of me will fit in. .

HOWEVER! If you collectively take my characters, then yes, you do have an accurate depiction of me.

This is a very mature point of view, but I should never be surprised by that. I already know how mature and intelligent you are. And I'm glad to see your connection with arts and communication ^_^ Again, not a real surprise, for you're clearly gifted. This kind of involvement and activities (together with natural interest for foreign languages, details, good memory, etc) are distintive features.

But I disagree about the self esteem/face a crowd relation; I think one can have enough 'character' (more than just 'courage') to be under the spotlight, but also have a bad image of oneself. To Face the public, but lacking self appreciation in some level...

I'm also an amateur stage actor ^_^ but singing is not usual; I dance.

True, true. But anyway, you might see "low self esteem" when I criticize my own work. Honestly, I think it's just Artist's affliction. You know, when you finish something and then to you it seems horrible but to everyone else it's beautiful. You think it's horrible because it doesn't really reflect perfectly what you had in mind. The likes..

Oh, well then Mr. Kyrion, you have got me beat! I don't dance. And no, it's not because I'm self conscious. I really really really do NOT know how to dance. Just like how I can't draw humans to save my life. .

No, Mr. Malkuthe, you beat me. I don't sing, and I didn't dance when I was 16 ^_^

You are mistaken Mr. Kyrion! You have an adorable dog! That beats not having one! HA!